Tattered flesh
The scars you left
Remain in my head
Thoughts of happiness
Are something I dread
Locked up
By balls and chains
Strapped to walls
My pale skin
Reveals my veins
Handcuffs digging
Into my flesh
Deep cuts in my heart
Are overly fresh
The candles flame
Spreads to burn
The heat surrounds
My pale skin
With handcuffs digging in my flesh
Screaming with pain
I only yearn
For the fire to burn
My already tattered skin
For the flames to end
The war I cant win
Against myself
In my heart
Fighting
To stop the bleeding
From the scars you left
The light flickers
In the kinfe you hold
The kinfe you used
To stab me
To cut my heart
And leave the scars
To blead
So I scream
Waiting
For the flames to burn
My already tattered skin

Naomi S.J. || 2:54 PM

Outspoken Truth
Dazed and confused
Looking for a part-time God
For their own private use
Too scared
To put on a public display
To show their affection
For the God to which they pray
Dazed and confused
Religion is not only skin deep
Not for personal use
God is not some secret that your supposed to keep
You are not alone
When things go bad, He will come through
The important thing to remember
Is that God is watching over you
You dont have to be dazed and confused
Looking for some God for your own personal use
Only praying when things go wrong
Worshipping Him when you dont belong
Trying to deny the faith you feel
Always trying to make some deal
Never willing to go all the way
Never will you for the God to which you pray
You dont seem to see that religion is not only skin deep
And that God is not some secret that your supposed to keep.
Naomi S.J. || 4:07 PM

Twitched
tap tap tap
the pencil taps
in and out
the people breathe
ignorance bliss
they dont believe
over and over
never learn
God sends fire
Evil burns
flowing waters
afloat lies me
suffocating
I feel free
reaching
for air
crying
in desperate despair
walk away
from troubled lives
shot in the back
and survived
trapped in reality
lost my sanity
complete vanity
Surrounds me
Its my mentality
searching
hoping for new
looking
for the truth
praying
to God we trust
sprinkled angel dust
tap tap tap
the pencil taps
Like a bird in a cage
Im always trapped
Naomi S.J. || 8:09 PM

Press Pause
Reach and scream
he is only a few feet away
Close now than any other time
Rach and Scream
Keep trying
One time, Im bound to get him
One of these times
Im bound to reach him, and when I do...
I wont ever let go
Reach and Scream
Wont ever give up
He'll be here soon
Hes not moving
And yet, Im not getting close
Reach and scream
Its hopeless...
I cant reach
Naomi S.J. || 7:46 PM

Change
A constant fear of change
The fear that someone will find your weakness
That theyll label you as strange
A fear of change in your life
You hope and pray the strongest you can
For the thought that this change could maybe be your last
Because....
Having seen your struggles last time
You know you cant make it through again
Even if the change is good, you know you cant go back
And all you want to do is go where youve been
A familiar place with familiar faces
A place of warmth in the cold world
A bit of light in all this darkness
You cant again
Not when things are just starting to make sense
Not if it means you have to make another choice
No way could you risk making the wrong one!
For that constant fear of change in you is eating you away
We all need a familiar place with familiar faces
And because of that, we cant more on
For that constant fear of change inside
Is eating you away
And you have nothing left to spare.
Naomi S.J. || 7:31 PM

Beyond the stairway
Flowing flowers
In constant bloom
Swaying grasses
Hidden dooms
Lit candles
Illuminate the shadows
Children play
In all the meadows
Angels gracefully fly
Through clouds of splendor
In the kingdom of God
Faithful surrender
Souls arrive
In the garden of grace
Beyond the threshold to the kingdom
Of our Lords everlasting embrace
Angels ring the doorbell to Heaven
As expected, God takes the time
To welcome the souls and nourish them
After their faithful and awaiting climb
Naomi S.J. || 6:03 PM

Stairway to Heaven
The hands are mine
And they are praying
The feet are mine
And they are staying
I may be fixed
But I am breaking
Im in a dream
And I am waking
Im standing at the door to Heaven
Up the elevator, to floor eleven
Im sinking in some quicksand
While trying to find my neverland
Cause' nothing is ever what it seems
Not in my life, and not in my dreams
These eyes are mine
And they are empty
This heart is mine
Filled with pity
These hands are mine
And they're always feeling
This head is mine
And its always wheeling
Im standing at the door to Heaven
Up the elevator, to floor eleven
Im sinking in some quicksand
While trying to find my neverland
Cause' nothing is ever what it seems
Not in my life, not in my dreams
Naomi S.J. || 7:30 PM

Back Home to Heaven
Let my tears drip down
And spread my dreams
Let the earth rejoice
And share my screams
Let everyone know
That Ill be okay
Cause Im on my way
Let my pain fall off
And fly away
Let the night pass by
And bring a new day
Let the world find out
That Ill be okay
Cause Im on my way
Let my blood flow out
And set me free
Let the throbbing sease
And stop my insanity
Let everyone know
That Ill be okay
Cause Im on my way
Let Heaven be ready
With open doors
Let my wings spread out
So I can sour
Let my family know
That I'll be okay
Cause Im on my way
Back Home
To Heaven
Naomi S.J. || 9:08 AM

Subliminal Messaging
People feel so empty
They hold no base
Gripping onto to something fake
Worship of an empty face
Baseball cards
Sports teams
Watching games on the TV set
Letting out some silent screams
When that team loses
People mourne and fall into depression
Tumbling into dark oblivion
Worshiping this world were stuck living in
Trapped in a false faith
Nothing to lose
No pride to waste
Forced worship sent from the media
Infected by the sports teams bacteria
Trying to fit into one criteria
Looking up words in the encylopedia
Tumbling into dark oblivion
Squeezing into some invisible meridian
People feel so empty
Looking to grip some base
Trying to find truth in this world
Imagine all the energy they waste
Trying to find the right thing to worship
And choosing to worship a sports team who makes way too much money in the time they spend doing what they love
Denying the truth and all the love our God sends down to us from above


Naomi S.J. || 7:02 PM

Clicked
I now see
That we
Have been decieved
We were free
From everything
Until I saw
What always was
I know the truth
Told from above
I felt the love
But
Still
I got decieved
And now I see
Im no longer free.
Naomi S.J. || 4:39 PM

Train ride to sun set
Rustling sounds
In a brisky cool mornings time
Images flashing
Past me in the window
Rustling sounds
Beneath me they shake
Swerving out of control
Falling into a lake
Rustling sounds
As we hit the icey cold water
Losing breath
Losing sight
Rustling sounds
Surrounding my body, entering my mind
Head is throbbing
Eyes go blind
Rustling sounds
Stomach churns
Lungs close up
The water burns
Rustling sounds
Words are a scream
Gasping for breath
It was all a bad dream.

Naomi S.J. || 9:43 AM

Turn off the dark
Erase me of distractions
Show me your eternal light
Take away the shadow
Shine light into my life
Cast death upon the shadow
Candle lit in the room
Blow out the darkness
Allow pain to bloom
Im lost within your presence
Save me from this maze
A maze we call life
Lead me all the way
Cast death upon the shadows
Candle lit in the room
Blow out the darkness
Allow pain to bloom
Naomi S.J. || 5:11 AM

I cant sleep
I cant sleep anymore
It causes the bags under my eyes
To get darker and darker
Until
The pain inside decides to subside
And the tears are all gone
None left
But I still cant sleep
Even when I push thoughts
Away from my thinking process
I still cant sleep
Because my heart is thinking
And hurting
And crying
For everything Ive overcome
Its damaged
And cant be fixed
Non repairable
Its cracked
And leaking
Draininf my life away
I still cant sleep
And its like this everyday.


Naomi S.J. || 5:14 AM

Forbidden Doors
The labyrinth of humans
placing me captive
locking me up
Will not forgive
The path goes on
With doors hidden
trapping people
Exits forbidden
Prisoner of pain
Savior of souls
Keeper of keys
Allies alone
The path goes on
With doors hidden
Trapping people
Exits forbidden
Beggar of bribes
Truth to trial
Realistic reasons
Death and denial
The path goes on
With doors hidden
Trapping people
Exits forbidden
Healer of humans
Pastor of prayer
Deeds of decision
Reasonings rare
The path goes on
With doors hidden
Trapping people
Exits forbidden
Flesh Finder
Bone beater
Death denier
Chariot cheater
The path does on
With doors hidden
Trapping people
Exits forbidden

Naomi S.J. || 7:51 PM

Letting GoIm so ready to let go
let go of all the pain Ive come to know
Fly away to a place where I can be
A normal person with the privlege to be free
So ready to let go
let go of all the feelings ive come to know
to go awat and never look back
to find a world not painted black
im so ready to let go
let go of all these tears ive come to know
ill go away, and find the end
ill never come back to where Ive been
Im so ready to let go
let go of this life ive come to know
to find a place where I wont cry
To find a place where hatred dies
Im ready to let go, and I am.
Naomi S.J. || 12:53 PM

Hallusinations
It feels like the walls are closing in
Causing my pain to burn, way down deep within
Making my heart break into pieces
As the hurting inside only increases
Sounds like some thunder, as a storm brews inside
If only I could be rid myself of all this sick pride
And I feel so abandoned
Im so sick of being left alone and stranded
Im sick of couting my days, till death has me stuck
No more will I concider death to be great luck
I've been ready for my next days
Im sick of just wasting away
Sitting in self denial
Waiting for my eternal trial
And I just want to fly away from this
I want it to be the moon that I can kiss
I want to stop hallusinating
And go somewhere instead of waiting
Im really ready for the next day
So I dont just have to waste away
Sitting in my self denial
Waiting for my eternal trial.
Naomi S.J. || 5:32 PM

The battle of life on earth
Most children cry when their mommys leave
Saying goodbye to them is something too rare to achieve
Forever they'll be wondering where they should start
While trying to mend their torn and broken heart
For each of their lives, they'll be waiting to return
Trying to stop their faces and the pain that will burn
But for me, things are different, in more ways than one
This war with my mom had yet to be won
The battle procedes, back and forth throughout my days
Of course, I could end it, in more than one way
But the pride inside tears me up and rips me to shreads
At some points of this battle, I'd just rather be dead


Naomi S.J. || 2:47 PM

Crouched in a corner
Im falling on my knees
Begging you to please
Share my secrecy
Cause I cant take it anymore
Im in a corner, curled on the floor

Im so sick of this pain
I can not take all of the blame
For the monsters under my bed
In the darkness, eyes glowing red
Gone to sleep, dont turn off the light
Where do you hide in my room at night?

Im falling on my knees
Begging you to please
Share my secrecy
Take me away
From my apathy
I cant take it anymore
Im in a corner, curled on the floor
Leave my room, and shut the door
Naomi S.J. || 4:36 AM

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Schaumburg, IL.
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